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Sun, 12 Mar 2006 22:40:27 GMT

i should have never come to tallahassee. boys lie and girls are whores. seriously, why the fuck do some girls only go after the taken guys, find your own fucking boyfriend. im stupid for planning my life around something so stupid.

i'm moving to new york in may and im never looking back. fuck being hurt so bad, fuck making wrong decisions, fuck everything except my own life and what i want. what was i thinking going to school when i could be making so much money modeling. i cant wait to move to new york. i might also go to europe or asia for a few months. i just want to go now, there is too much stuff in tallahassee that i want to forget about and never see again.

when the fuck is the march issue of ocean drive magazine coming out!? im getting pissed, im supposed to be in it but i swear they are not going to put it out this month.

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 16:40:39 GMT

alright so no big deal really, but i got to meet the lead singer from of montreal last night!! better than that he actually wanted to hang out after the show. im so fucking mad at myself, the show didnt end till like two and i figured he wasnt going to call me anyways so i went home and went to sleep. he totally called and texted me after i was home already but i was already almost asleep and i didnt answer :(
such a good night though, the show was awesome and he was really nice.
fiery furnaces tonight!

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 20:44:39 GMT

alright so i got onto livejournal today for the first time in a while and my background was changed. what the fuck, maybe my computer is just fucking up or something because why would someone go on and just change my background. weird

i wasted almost 300$ on a phone yestarday. and now im wishing i had bought this other one for 400$. its like a razor but it's not a flip phone. its real small and it has the same type of buttons as the razor and it's super super skinny and it plays itunes. whatever, it's probably for the best i didnt spend that much money. although what else am i going to spend it on? just random stupid stuff probably

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 20:14:17 GMT

for those of you who dont know yet

im coming to srq this weekend so lets hang out!

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 18:32:39 GMT

everyone in tallahassee is soooo nice. i meet some really cool people this weekend. i might be coming back to srq some time next month, i want to get my bike and i have a gift card to the mall that is going to waste. i just need some money to get me down there.

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 19:03:44 GMT

BEST NEWS EVER!! the three greatest people are coming to tally. racheal you better be coming. it wont be the same without you. nikki and jenny im so excited
i love you guys

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 19:49:20 GMT

it sucks not having internet at my apartment.
also my phone screen is broken. i can see when i have missed calls but i cannot see who it is from so anyone who wants me to call them back needs to leave me a message and your number

on the border has the best margaritas ever.
it sucks it's so stormy out right now, i really wanted to go running:(

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 18:44:19 GMT

im in tallahassee! i love school, i love my apartment. i miss my friends. hopefully i can make some new ones here. it sucks not really knowing anyone.

come visit me!!

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 22:53:31 GMT

new years was so good. vodka, champaigne, beer, jello shots, and getting stranded and having to walk with jenny and nikki. and i didnt even get sick. i wish every night could be like that night

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 21:29:41 GMT

i don't want to go to tallahassee anymore. it's going to make me sad. im sure im going to run into stupid whores(well one). how can i ever get over something when it happend right where i am going to be. if i ever see that girl again i think i will throw up. she was so nice to me last year. i hate fake people.
whatever today is new years eve and im about to go get wasted and forget about all my problems and everything that is wrong with my life
(for whoever wants to come party with me 587 8118)

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 20:03:32 GMT

look at these bad ass marc jacob shoes i got to wear a few weeks ago. will someone please please get them for me

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 19:37:09 GMT

hey guys everyone should go out and get self magazine. im so excited im actually in it! the picture is retarded but whatever i never get to see any of my pictures cuz they're all foreign magazines.

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 20:58:58 GMT

yay for jello shots that i actually made sucessfully. i've had such a good past couple days. being with friends is way better than sitting home alone. it makes me forget about all of my problems.

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 21:11:26 GMT

i saw walk the line last night. it was good and all but it just reminded me of how shitty guys are. how easy it is to cheat and get away with it. how it could happen all the time especially with long distance relationships. this sucks. i hate my life right now. everything used to be so good

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 21:08:27 GMT

so i've come to realize that i have basically no friends left in sarasota. i was walking around the mall today by myself and i was thinking about how there is no one i could even call to come hang out at the mall with me. some just don't like me anymore which is really sad since one was my best friend, and it's my fault for not keeping in touch with others.
im getting so scared to go to tallahassee. im starting to find out how shady some people up there are. im scared im not going to meet anyone or ever have as good of friends as i did like a year ago. everyone up there has already formed their own group of friends by now and i dont know anyone. it's easy here because if i do go out i at least usually know people there but it's going to be weird being surrounded by completely new faces.
new years eve i'll be hanging out with my sister and some other awesome people so if anyone does want to meet up give me a call.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 18:14:19 GMT

im having the best time in miami. my roomates are fucking awesome. im actually going to miss miami. i just got back from key west shooting for dutch elle. best job i've ever done, it was so much fun. the crew was the nicest i've ever meet. im so excited for it to come out, im gonna be in three differant issues and on the cover of one of them. i finally finally found a place in tallahassee. it's right across from tcc. one bedroom but i have to rent furniture. im a little bit nervous about what it is going to look like, i dont get to see it until i actually move into it. anything will be better than sharing a room though. im excited to actually have a little privacy.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 03:25:20 GMT

my roomate was in america's next top model last year

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 04:29:43 GMT

im working on thanksgiving:( what a drag, my call time is 5am!!! i have to wake up at fucking four in the morning. it's for some german magazine i've never heard of. i was supposed to be in this months issue of self magazine i was all excited about it and when i looked at it, it was another girl. it was the same story and even the same type of pictures! i guess they didnt think i was pretty enough for it. i got paid for it still so it's ok. im on hold for abercrombie and fitch. this is like the third time they have thought about using me. they never do.
im moving to tallahassee in january, im pretty excited. everyone should come visit me!
god boys can be sooo fucking gay sometimes. they say not to do something and then they go and fucking do it. so rediculous. but if we werent fighting i wouldnt have gotten to go out the other night. and im glad i did, i had a good time and i saw some good people.

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 20:38:36 GMT

i booked my first cover!! it's for a german magazine so i might not ever get to see it but i've never done the cover of a magazine before so im pretty excited.
sarasota wednesday
tallahassee thursday
orentation for school friday
one year annaversary sunday!!!<3
it's actually been two years on and off sort of, but our one full year is this sunday

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 02:10:26 GMT

tallahassee in january!! omg im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
does anyone by any chance know anyone who needs a roomate up in tally? i need to get an appartment and id rather room with someone i know( or someone that someone i know knows) than a complete stranger

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 01:09:40 GMT

it's soooo nice outside today

for anyone who cares at all, dont worry i wasnt in miami durning the hurricane but all of my belongings were. im so scared i will go back home and everything will be gone.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 03:08:10 GMT

i did my first fashion show saturday night it was so scary right before i went out, they had video cameras and press and people taking your pictures everywhere, it was crazy. but it was so much fun. and the clothes were amazing.
the best part was all the free alcohol, they pour it around like it's water. nobody cares about drinking age. i went to a club after and we got in free and even got to cut the entire line and all of that which was great, but seriously by like 4:30 me and the people i came with were the only ones left. i couldnt believe how early everyone went home. miami is really starting to grow on me. i love going dancing but then i think about how much better it is at home and in tallahassee. i would rather pay for my alcohol and hang out with a few good friends than go clubbing everynight with people i hardly know.

the apartment doesnt have furniture in it yet except the beds, and the stove doesnt work and there is no microwave. how the hell am i supposed to make food? hopefully the stove will be fixed tomorrow.
coming back to sarasota in the next couple of weeks probably for just a day or so to get some stuff. and maybe tallahassee too hopefully.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 18:37:51 GMT

pretty much all i've been eating lately is snickers icecream bars and twizzlers. they are so so good
and im downloading all the episodes of nip tuck. i have two done already. it takes forever but it's worth it to not have to pay 50$ a season or however much it costs. plus it gives me something to do.
it sucks a little bit here because season doesnt start till november so there are not many jobs or casting right now. i worked on monday and i have a casting tonight at seven, but there's nothing to do in the meantime. i don't know anyone here. my roomate is nice and everything but i think we are just too differant to become friends. i sent in my applications for fsu and tcc on monday. i should find out next month if i was accepted or not. i really hope so. i actually hate not being in school. i sort of miss it. plus i bet the weather in tally is awesome. it's hot and humid here. i guess having nothing to do gives me lots of free time to do whatever i want. but it's kind of lonely going around by myself. plus it's not too much fun going out to eat alone or going to the movies or the beach.
i love how everything is walking distance. i never need to drive my car or worry about finding parking. the only bad thing about walking is that its so hot and creepy people stare and yell things. i dont like that at all. i cant wait till winter, i've already bought some really awesome gloves. all my winter clothes have been begging to come out of my car. they get bored laying around all year. soon though. apparently it's supposed to start getting cold around november. that's so far away :(
my one year with riley is november 20th. we've actually been dating for two years but with all the breakups and stuff we're just counting since the last time we got back together.

my sister is coming on the 11th of november! along with some other people, i dont know who, but if anyone wants to come along feel free to. miami is a pretty cool place, well if you have friends anyways.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 16:12:31 GMT

what a good day!
i found an awesome thrift store
i bought a dress, a skirt, a vest, and a purse for a total of 17$

miami kind of sucks though, i dont know anyone, so if anyone wants to come visit me that would be awesome

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 18:21:12 GMT

i want to have a party tomorrow night(nothing big) since im leaving. i may possible be able to use my moms house but if not does anyone know of anywhere i could have it?